Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Did you notice how I said I was going to "process" it all? I say that a lot. "I need to take time to process that." I think it's the curse of my personality. I process (aka: overthink things) all the time. Last night God brought this thought to mind. If I was about to skid off the road and off a cliff, would I take time to "process" what the next best move was? No, I'd be more like the Carrie Underwood song "Jesus, Take the Wheel". Could it be that with some of these buried emotions, God is asking me to do just that? Stop thinking about them and trying to process my way to the bottom of the issue. Maybe I just need to recognize the emotion, admit that it's sin, and ask for forgiveness and then choose to let it go. Anytime those same thoughts come into my mind, since I've recognized them as sin, I should stop thinking them and just choose to think about what God would want me to.
Philippians 4:8 ~ Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.
There you go. That verse is exactly what I should be spending my time thinking. Do I? No. I definitely do fill my mind with a lot of other thoughts that aren't quite so true, noble, right, pure, lovely or admirable. Can my dreams reflect this? I believe they will if my daytime thoughts are full of such things.
So, as I enjoy another day of sunshine and family time, I know it's a new chance today to fill my mind with things that are honoring to my heavenly Father. And if I have another night of not so wonderful dreams, I'm going to choose to let them go and re-focus my mind on what Philippians 4:8 talks about.
It's time to stop "processing" everything and just start running it through the filter of God's Word. But right now...it's time to hit the pool.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
I shouldn't be surprised. I mean, really, I should almost laugh at the enemy's pitiful attempts to get me off track. Then again, how pitiful are they if I've succumbed to them once again? But the enemy's timing is of no surprise. Yesterday was a really good day. So it only stands to reason that today he'd be trying to knock the wind out of yesterday's sails. Why, oh why, have I fallen for this again?!
How do you react when you're feeling like this? I retreat. Or at least I try to...as much as any busy homeschooling mom of 3 can. I'm not answering the phone today (unless it's Dave or my Mom, in which case I am). I'm trying to distract myself from thinking too much too (which is hard for an introspective, deep-thinker like myself). Why do I have to distract myself from thinking too much? Because my negative self-talk is a majority of my problem. Honestly. If someone else talked to me the way I do, I'd never socialize with them again. That's kind of a problem when I can't get away from me.
So here I am trying to process these feelings and sort them out into something that makes sense. Something that I can overcome. Put to a plan. Aha! Maybe that's my problem? As much as I say I'm asking for God's help and wanting to change, the fact is I'm still holding onto it (or I wouldn't be a big bundle of nerves right now). I'm wanting God to tell me what to do so I can do it (not so that I can let God do it all). I'm wanting to be in control somehow. But God is asking me to give it all to Him. Whenever I catch these negative thoughts coming into my head, I should hand them over to God and praise Him for who He is. Praise Him for loving me. Praise Him for His faithfulness and goodness and gentleness and mercy. Take my attention off of me and my supposed "problems" and turn them onto God and all of His wonderful promises.
Maybe the light bulb just went on after all. The whole "Let go and let God" saying has always seemed so cliche. Well, maybe that's because I wasn't fully letting go. Hmmm...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
I am someone who is moved by music and its lyrics. Whether it's because of my 30+ years of playing the violin or just the creative side of me, I hear God speaking through music on a very regular basis. As I've been praying for direction in certain areas of my life recently, I heard this song. It's message spoke to me loud and clear: don't be afraid to go after your dreams...God is right there with you. So, I just had to add this you tube link to my blog. Enjoy!