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Gettin' a Grip!

I have to start out by saying how blessed I am for the amazing friends I have in my life. It was so awesome last night to share the evening (all of it...'til midnight!) with two of our favorite families. Our kids all have a blast and the adults do too. It's just so nice to be able to "chill" with some great friends. No pressure. No hype. No expectations. Just fun. Love that!

Well, if you read this &/or my facebook page lately, you may have noticed me venting and being very stressed/overwhelmed. Can I take a second to vent about my venting? I process things often by writing or talking them out with my husband or venting on my FB page. I was told by someone on Friday to basically get over it and shut up. Well, in time, I always do "get over it". But can I just say...if you don't want to hear me venting, no one is making you read my posts! Please don't tell me to stop venting on my own FB page or blog. It's my personal therapy at times. If you find me annoying, then feel free to ignore my posts. I won't mind. But I will try to limit my venting to places not quite so public from now on. Oh, and I think the biggest thing I need when I'm feeling like that is someone to pray for me or with me or call me up and hear the whole scoop. Thanks to those people in my life who do that.

Whew. I feel better now.

So, on Friday I literally thought I was having a nervous breakdown. I haven't been that beside myself in a long time. I think it was a combination of PMS, stress of current life situations, and even some pre-menopause hormones. I mean...I was just a mess. Thankfully I woke up Saturday feeling more normal, but for a while on Friday night I didn't think I was ever going to get it together. I know that I let my emotional tank get to the point of breathing fumes, and that's never a good thing. Friday night after I took a 10PM walk around the neighborhood to pull myself together (after crying uncontrollably in Dave's arms as he stood there speechless), I watched a DVD by the guy who wrote "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus." He wrote a new book all about hormones and stress and how men and women process it differently. Boy was that the perfect night for me to watch this! His new book is called "Venus on Fire and Mars on Ice" and I highly recommend it to all my pre-menopause friends out there. This whole thing with hormones is something that I know I need to pay more attention to. It's only just beginning I'm afraid. I'm all about treating the cause and not the symptoms, and about doing things as naturally as possible. It's time to study up on hormones. Joy.

I just wanted to post a quick update on here just to let you know (if you care) where I was coming from the last few days. I told Dave today that I think I had a mini-nervous breakdown on Friday night...although I don't know how mini it felt at the time. Praise God for some clarity of thought and the ability to put everything into perspective. I think, though, that I need to put my personal well-being much higher on my priority list this summer. Especially with homeschooling now, I need to use my summers to get a grip and perspective. I have a personal health goal for my 40th birthday (which is coming up in 15 months). I have a lot of actions to take to accomplish this goal! I need to get a huge start on it this summer. I think Friday's meltdown may have been the wake-up call I needed to start taking better care of myself.

Thanks for caring enough to read this. I promise I'll try not to be such a downer from now on. :-)

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