Motherhood Moments

As 2018 comes to a close, I wanted to take a moment to share some thoughts on this - my twins' senior year of high school. For the first year in a while, I am really enjoying this holiday season. I'm being purposeful about slowing down and enjoying it. Making a point to fit in our family traditions - yet not stressing about the details. What a joy! I have no idea how our holiday traditions will change in the future, but I'm just thoroughly appreciating each moment of this one. One quick sidebar (to follow-up on my last post from June): Luke ended up with 7 full-ride offers. He verbally committed to Toledo in September and signed his National Letter of Intent in November. We are officially a Rocket family! It's actually Luke's "Road to the Rockets" that has really shaped my thoughts on this year. I've been thinking a lot about this: We have prayed more plans for direction for our family this year than I remember doing in a very long tim

I've wanted to post all the details of Luke's basketball recruitment (mostly so I don't forget) - but I've been hesitant to say too much out loud for fear of jinxing it or something. 😊 However, now that we're a full year into his official D1/D2 recruitment period, I feel like I want to share the journey because it's full of #OnlyGod moments. It's long. But it's a fun story - I promise. Before June 15th, 2017 (the first day D1/D2 coaches could officially reach out to him), the true start of his basketball journey was when he started AAU his 8th grade year. We had NO idea then where this whole thing would take him. He had been playing since he was 8, and we knew he had lots of talent. But here's how this whole thing really started... I found out about 8th grade tryouts for ACB (an AAU team that doesn't exist anymore) in the fall of 2014. We had heard that playing AAU (travel ball) was a must and that it was best to get him started in the AAU c

Interesting that I haven't posted in here in over a year and (sadly) I am still dealing with much of the same struggles. I would say I have gotten a lot further in the grief process, which is great. But still have a lot of days where depression & anxiety keep me from truly enjoying life. I hope that a year from now, I will be posting about how I've overcome in this area too. But for now, let me share some thoughts... The Enemy Is Sneaky I have some time alone today (which doesn't happen much), so my mind has time to process things more clearly. I have been praying recently for God to - once again - help me with my self-talk. When I was having weight loss success in 2011, my self-talk was amazing. I didn't tolerate condemnation.  Or guilt. Or self-hatred. I was all about grace and love and encouragement to myself. Just like the weight has all come back on, so has my horrible self-talk. And it's kind of shocking when you realize just how off-track you've g