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Really? So soon?!

Can I just vent for a second? Why is being a responsible adult so...so...full of responsibility?! My quest to be Miss "Planned & Organized" for the start of the New Year is pressing all the anxiety buttons from within. I'm realizing, I guess, just how many areas we have to improve in! Kind of depressing. I thought it's rather interesting how I was so gung-ho about this yesterday, and now the wind has already been knocked out of my sails. Of course, I guess there's nothing wrong with just floating here for a little while.

Hah. That's actually not a bad idea! Just float around in this spot of acknowledgement and stay focused on God until He shows me the next step in the process.

Floating. Now that makes me think about sunshine and swimming pools. At first I smile as I think about being in Florida in March. Just chillin' with the family and enjoying the warm sunshine and relaxing pool. Then I start to get those same anxiety buttons pushed as I remember that we bought a used pool this fall that will require a LOT of work (and more money) to get it up and approved by the Township and ready to use next summer. Ugh. Why does my brain do this to me?!

Have you heard of the book: "Men are Like Waffles Women are Like Spaghetti"? The book description says: "Bill and Pam Farrel explain why a man is like a waffle (each element of his life is in a separate box), and why a woman is like spaghetti (everything in her life touches everything else)." I think that's why my brain jumps from the blissfulness of a family vacation in Florida, to the stressfulness of installing & paying for said installment of our pool. And probably also why I need this blog to spew all the thoughts out and then have the ability to process them clearly.

Hmmm. Waffles. Those sound really good right now...
(See, my brain really is like spaghetti! And, no, I'm not going to eat any...it's past 7PM so the only thing passing my lips is water).

I do feel a bit better after venting. I kind of laugh though at the enemy's attempts to squelch my momentum. I might be floating around a bit right now, but it's not without a purpose. (And, yes, I know it's been less than 24 hours...I just hate losing steam so quickly!) God is just giving me a chance to wait on Him. Goodness knows that's something I'm not always so good at. Funny, though, how I never looked at the wind being knocked out my sails analogy quite the same way before. But then, this is a time in my life where God is giving me LOTS of new perspectives.

Praise the Lord for THAT one! Watch out 2011...HERE I COME!!

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