Motherhood Moments

I've always felt like I didn't quite fit in. From that girl at GCS who felt completely invisible to the way I still feel most days...my social circle has always been miniscule. But that's not the kind of not fitting in that I'm talking about. I'm talking about the idea of: "Being IN this world, but not OF it".  For SO many reasons, 2020 made the gap even wider for me in that regard. I know without a doubt that this world is NOT my home. And I have felt less and less comfortable being a sojourner in it as the struggles of this world have become more and more contrary to all the things I hold dear. My heart's cry is more and more: "Jesus, come quickly!" We all know the horrors of 2020. I really don't want to re-hash them or give them anymore space in my brain than what they've already stolen. 2020 was filled with all manner of disappointments from things being cancelled. All manner of fear and lies and evil. All manner of reminders of w